A Love Letter - For Chris

I text: “I love you”

He responded: “I love us… we can be the perfect couple when we want to be”

All these years, you have been there for me

My friend

My partner in crime

My lover

My business partner

My shoulder to cry on

My teacher

My buddy

My boyfriend

I always knew I loved you. But, when I fell, I fell hard. When it happened, it really happened.

It’s crazy how it feels old, but its new. It feels like forever, but that forever has already happened and now we are starting over. 

My love is deep. But it’s hard. 

Not hard to be with you, hard to be without you.

But, our lives are crazy. We are so busy. It’s so complicated. 

But everything still feels right. It feels like everything will always be okay, from now on, as long as I have you.

It’s crazy how I feel for you.

Our love, what we have, it makes everything from my past feel like a big blur. 

It’s like I was lost in the forest or something… and you finally found me and brought me home.

It’s like finally getting to that place you have been searching for… but when you get there you realize that you have always been there in your head. 

The difference now is just that your heart finally found its place.

My heart found its place with you and I am happy. 

I am in love... with you...

Listen and Learn: Now Is the Time

Learning from everyone around you
You think you have something to give.... and you do
But it's not always about that
Look.
Listen.
Listen.
Listen!
LEARN from EVERYONE!
The bum.
The crazy.
The sad.
The needy.
The annoying.
The afraid.
The shy.
The lonely.
The angry.
Stop your voice.
Think.
Love.
Open your mind.
Allow.
Smile.

I learned a lot this year. I gave a lot. I took a LOT. I loved. I lost. I loved again. I broke. I gave up. I gave in. I let go. I held. I cried. I lost. I allowed. I forgot. I remembered... 

And in the end, or at least in this place I find myself in now, I have learned:

Not to take everything so seriously.
To laugh at myself (an unbelievably hard thing for me to do).
To choose my battles.
To stay quiet when what I have to say is less important than the persons feelings I am saying it to.
That my opinion on things that relate to others beliefs are always irrelevant.

That advice is only received when requested and not to give any unless asked.

Approach is everything - a defensive listener has a wall up. When you want to confront someone about something tough - wait for the right moment and ask nicely for communication.

To enjoy every single second I have with my kids - and really REALLY see, hear and touch them.

Eye contact is SO important. 

Hear people, listen and don't think about what you are going to say next - but only about what they are saying to you.

And, wherever you find yourself now, love you, embrace you, enjoy life... don't worry about what used to be or what might be. BE IN THE NOW.

Us

Butterflies
Lovely ones
They flutter

Your smile, your eyes, your laugh, your heart...

Tell me, when was the last time you gave in?

Breathless, speechless...

So many questions... so much fun discovering the answers...

The nights are getting cooler now
The air more crisp
I am aware, a change is stirring inside of me

I dream... am I awake? Am I sleeping?

I am in that place...
where dreams are reality and reality is a dream
where day is night and night is day
where weakness is strength
where every moment is bliss... every glance, every smile, every breath...

And you, you are in that place too

We... we are in that place...

You are me
I am you

We are one.

Searching for words... there are none
Words have not been written for what I feel
Words do not exist in this place

Heart pounding
A million years flash before my eyes
A reunion
Blissfully joyful
Full of gratitude
A heightened state of awareness
Positive vibrational pull

First times, so familiar

Sparks
They fly
But one... it embers inside of me
You ignited it
And each word you write, speak, feel, think... it fuels my fire
And I love it
I love how I feel

And it all makes sense now
The pieces of the puzzle...

But I am lost
I am lost in you
But I let myself go... and I am falling... deeper... longer... harder...
And I am finding myself in a pool of bliss

I look at the sky
I see the moon
I think of you
And suddenly I am flying... and I love flying in your wondrous sky
I didn’t realize I could get so high

Am I falling or flying?
Am I in you?
Are you in me?
Or are we one... already inside of each other...
Deep inside and yet so high...

Random has reason
Purpose
Perfect
I see
You see
We see
We are
We
Us

Believe in:

... a place of peace... unconditional love
... a community of faith and hope
... a beautiful new beginning, a new chance
... forgiveness
... truth... YOUR truth
... unlimited possibilities
... the good of mankind
... the perfect opportunity
... your freedom to choose

I believe.

I believe I will get through the hard times. I believe I will reach my goals. I believe I will fulfill my dreams. I believe people are good. I believe that love flows to me when I give love. I believe that if I forgive others, I can be forgiven. I believe that the past is gone and that today is all that matters. I believe that nothing is impossible. I believe nothing is as it seems. I believe you can`t see with your eyes, you can only really see with your heart. I believe I have a sixth sense. I believe I know what is right. I believe I have a good heart. I believe I have a lot to give. I believe I can help people. I believe every word you speak has a rippling effect that lasts forever in time. I believe thoughts become reality. I believe everything has a purpose, so everything really happens for a reason. I believe you have a choice, you choose how to feel. I believe we create our own purpose. I believe you can only see yourself for who you really are once you`re willing to accept yourself as you are right now. I believe people can change. I believe it`s okay to follow your own heart. I believe you can`t judge people because you never really know. I believe in leaving some questions unanswered. I believe we are all part of one greater being. I believe that one person can change the world. I believe that you are important. I believe you have purpose in my life. I believe you have the power to change the world. I believe in you. I believe in me.

I believe.

My Truth Quote Of The Day

“What lies behind you and what lies in front of you, pales in comparison to what lies inside of you.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson