Alone

I love how easy it is for you to just run away
Just because there`s words you can`t say
Why can`t you just quietly stay?
Try to help me find a better way?

Instead I`m left sitting alone
A reminder I live in a "broken home"
I could hear a roughness when you said "bye" in your tone
Now I sit, just waiting, starring at the phone

Why is it okay for you to leave me like this?
A sideways look and a curtsey goodbye kiss?
Remember when we were together in our own bedroom bliss?
Isn`t that something that you`re going to miss?

I wish there was something I could say to you
To know that I was really getting through
Just to see if I could spark something new
To know that you want something better too

But for now I just sit alone and depressed
I can lay in the dark, but I know I wont rest
Thinking of the thoughts I should have confessed
About how much I love you and how you`re so blessed

For now I wonder if you`re thinking of me
And if you heard the prayer I said silently
And if by chance you might want me to be
Dreaming of you... content and happily

So, I sit here wishing you would just call
I can`t stand to let another tear fall
This isn`t what either of us wanted at all
To let a gap between us grow so big and so tall

I`ll stay awake tonight, alone in bed
With these continuous thoughts that seem stuck in my head
Of all the bad words that were or weren`t said
Wishing I could replace them with these words instead:

"I know you don`t like it when I put up a fight
But I`m hoping that one of these days that you might
Lay close to me with your arms around me tight
And whisper that you want to stay every night"

Then I wont feel like I`ve lost something sweet
In the darkness your lips and mine will meet
Our bodies will touch from our heads to our feet
And I will remember how it feels to be complete